冥冥中的指引
随和女居士
缘起：去年九月由于有佛友热心的协助，令我兴起置作慈师林钰堂博士华文网页的念头以服务仅懂华文的佛友，由于我们现有的网站内容已够充实，且因我不谙此技，因此慈师鼓励我好好将心安住于修行及仅从事我可以胜任的法务工作即可。由于当时有佛友愿意承担网页的设计与制作，所以我没依慈师的教示，仍冒然做去。没想到首页才完成没多久，就因突然的因缘变化而使所有的助缘完全断绝，最后只好由我这个完全外行的人来继续。由于没有经验，因此制作过程中，屡劳慈尊怙主为我不成熟且多变的网页内容给予一次又一次的校正。也许是真诚的发心，有多回得到加持的梦兆，且制作过程也有一些感应，因此让我在挫折中因这些鼓舞而得以坚持到底，现谨记三个较特殊的经历以志佛恩，以酬护法。
第一次：记得刚完成网页的内容大纲时，我很仔细的将每个环节都测试了几回，直到确认一切正常且上网也没有问题，心想第二天可以万无一失的呈给怙主确认内容。当天刚好上午要上电脑课，所以我在下课后，留在教室内做邮寄前的最后确认，没想到测试到陈上师的网页内容时，竟然出现找不到陈上师这个网页内容的讯息，我很纳闷，何以整个内容都变成空白的？就很仔细的将原始资料重新调出来重新制作这个版面的内容，接连重制了几回，一上网就出现空白的网页，最后甚至出现找不到此网页的讯息，不得已只好求救于专业的电脑人士—洪老师，并请他检示我的每个连结是否无误，在他仔细的一一检查与确认后，认为一切无误，心想这回上网应该很妥当了吧！没想到连上网后，出现的仍是一片空白的页面，他很讶异这种情况，还说这是根本不可能会发生的事，我请他亲自再检查每个环结，仍找不出有任何错误，最后他也无能为力。我只好将此档案删除，再重新制作一份同样的档案。由于之前我已试了多回都是无法显现网页内容（我已不记得当时是用哪篇文章作为此网页的内容，只记得不是慈师的作品），后来因经过几次的重新制作，该内文最后是整个版面也全都不见了，我才意识到是不是要更换内容？因此只好重新构思要找什么内容才好。我找了很多现有的文章，最后有个念头闪过：陈上师的网页内容应该用他心子的文章。没想到这念头一来，很快的就找到现在呈登的〈陈上师启请短颂〉、〈启请陈师早诞颂〉及〈陈上师行状短颂〉三篇，当我将新内容放入网页后，一测试，荧幕上原本无法呈现的网页，像活起来似的全部立刻显现出来。
第二次：为了项目栏中要放什么专用标志，实在伤透脑筋，换了不下几十回，后来为了感谢佛友曾有的发心，所以选了“金刚智悲印”，但整个版面看起来，好像少了个什么，因为精力有限，所以一直没理它，直到有天晚上，我作了个梦，梦里在网页项目栏的第一个位置上出现怙主许多法印里的一个“法界虚我印”，然后就醒来了。我向怙主请示梦兆，怙主指示依梦示将此印列入项目栏中，因当时已将金刚智悲印放在第一位，为了省事，所以向怙主报告时，就自行更改次序，把无我印列到最后栏。在新增专用标志的时候，仍依己意将无我印放到最后面去，没想到完成后，上网一看，一阵头晕，一种颠倒且很不协调的感觉就呈现在荧幕上，因此我只好赶快卸下，重新依梦示的位置将无我印列于第一栏，同时将其他项目的次序也作了调整，然后将金刚智悲印置于最后。完成后，上网测试，记得当时，我被所呈现出来协调、融合且素雅的画面感动得热泪盈眶，而且一股无比喜悦的心情油然而生。此时我才领悟到—原来要先“无我”才能谈金刚心及智悲行。这种冥冥中的指引，着实令人刻骨铭心。
第三次：华文网页的一个特色是将怙主平时对弟子或佛友所请示的珍贵教示呈登出来。令我印象深刻的是，有一篇关于密法问题的开示，在本机作测试的时候都是正常显现，但当我上传至网站的时候，却无法开启该档案，由于我不死心，一直硬要放上去，最后整个网页都当了，连电脑也当机。事后向怙主报告该档案无法上传，并祈求怙主加持电脑运转顺利。怙主即指示可能护法不让我们将此篇上传，因此要我卸下此档案另外存档保留。没想到我一依指示将该档案卸除后，一切运作立刻恢复正常。我实在无法理解这些现象，即使是电脑专业人士，若不是亲身经验，也无法相信。依他们制作网页的经验那是根本不可能发生的事，也从来没有发生过，但却接二连三的发生在一个纯正发心的网页制作上。
网页制作颇波折，考验行人志坚诚；
纯粹发心直作去，冥冥指引眷顾多！
跋
由于个人的能力所及，网页制作仍有改善的空间。在生手的制作过程，能够顺利进展，要特别感谢慈尊怙主在百忙中仍殷殷提点，金刚师兄成穗的建议及诸佛菩萨的加持与护法的指引，使华文网页得以顺利运作。愿有缘进入此网页的人也都能得到诸佛菩萨的加持与护法的提携，在正道上精勤用功，早日成证。
二○○五年七月廿五日
随和居 于台北
Inspirational Guidance
Written in Chinese by Upasika Sui He
Translated into English by Dr. Yutang Lin
Causal Origination: Last September due to enthusiastic assistance from some Dharma friends there arose in me the thought of establishing a website to present Chinese works of my merciful Guru Dr. Lin so as to serve Buddhists who know only Chinese. Since the website we had had at that time contained much teaching and I did not know of how to design a website, hence my merciful Guru encouraged me to concentrate well on Dharma practices and to undertake only Dharma services that I was capable of. Since there was a Dharma friend who volunteered to undertake the design and construction of such a website, I did not follow my merciful Guru's advice, but instead rushed ahead with the project. Unexpectedly, not long after the title page was accomplished, all helps ceased due to sudden changes in causations. Eventually it continued only with the effort of myself, a novice to such undertaking. Due to my lack of experiences, during the course of web-construction I repeatedly burdened my Guardian Master with the work of reviewing the contents of my immature and constantly changing web-pages. Maybe it was due to my sincere aspiration I had had several blessing dreams, and during my web-construction there were some inspirational events. Therefore, even though faced with setbacks my spirit was uplifted and I could endure and sustain my efforts all the way. Now I carefully record below three events that were rather extraordinary to commemorate Buddha's grace, and to repay the kindness of Dharma protectors.
The First One: As I recall now when an outline of the contents of the website was accomplished, I carefully tested every juncture several times until I was sure that all were regular and there was no problem to visit it on-line. Then I thought that the next day I would surely be able to present it to my Guardian Master for verification of the contents. That day happened to be a day when I had computer lessons in the morning, so after the session I stayed in the classroom to do the final testing before I sent out the email. Unexpectedly when I was testing the contents of Guru Chen's website a message appeared saying that it could not be found. I was very dumbfounded, why did the whole content become blank? Then I carefully gathered all original materials again, and rebuilt the web-page again. Thus I worked several times. As soon as it was uploaded, it showed a blank page, and eventually even the message that it could not be found appeared. So I could not help but to seek help from a professional computer specialist, teacher Hong, and asked him to check every juncture of my work to see if they were without errors. After he had carefully checked and verified that each and every juncture was without errors, I thought that this time the result of uploading should be fine. Unexpectedly, after uploading there still appeared a blank page. He was very surprised at this situation, and said that it was impossible for such a situation to have arisen. I asked him to check each and every juncture again, and still he could not find any mistake. In the end there was nothing that he could do about this. So I had to delete this file and remake a new one that was exactly the same. Since I had already tested many times without appearance of the contents of the web-page (I cannot recall now which article was used as the content of this page, except that it was not a work by my Merciful Guru), and then due to several remakes of the web-page even the layout of that article was lost, only then did I realize that, could it mean that I need to replace the content of this web-page? So I began to contemplate again on what content to use would be appropriate. I gathered many articles that were on hand, and eventually a thought flashed across my mind: the content of Guru Chen's website should use works of his heart son. Unexpectedly, very soon after this thought arose I found the three works that are currently posted there: Supplication to Root-Guru Chen, Supplication to Guru Chen for His Speedy Return, and Praise to the Dharma Life of Guru Chen. After I had incorporated the new contents into the web-page, upon testing, on the monitor screen the web-page that could not appear immediately appeared fully as if coming alive.
The Second One: To figure out which logo to use in the classification toolbar was exhausting; over several dozens had been tried, and eventually as a token of repaying the initiation of a Dharma friend I chose the Vajra Wisdom and Compassion Seal. Nevertheless, the whole layout seemed to lack something. Since I was rather exhausted I did not pay any more attention to this point until one night in a dream I saw the Vacuous Self in Dharmadhatu Seal, one of the many Dharma seals of my Guardian Master, appeared in the first column of the classification toolbar, and then I woke up. I reported it to my Guardian Master for instructions, and he told me to incorporate this seal into the toolbar exactly as in the dream. Since the first column was already taken by another seal, to save myself the trouble of making more changes, while I reported the dream to my Guardian Master I simply changed the order and placed the new seal in the last column instead. Later while adding the new logo I still did it my way by placing the Vacuous Self seal into the final column. Unexpectedly, after it was thus accomplished when I viewed the web-page on-line I felt dazzled by a sense of upside-down and discord that arose from the monitor screen. Hence, I could not help but to remove that web-page. Then I rearranged the toolbar in accordance with the dream instruction to place the Vacuous Self seal in the first column, and also rearranged the order of the other items, and then placed the Vajra Wisdom and Compassion seal in the final column. After completion when I tested it on-line, as I remember then, I was moved to tearful eyes by the presence of a harmonious, unified and simple yet elegant image, and a feeling of incomparable joy naturally arose. Then I comprehended that, there need be first the realization of Vacuous Self, and then it will be possible to achieve Vajra mind and Wisdom and Compassion activities. This kind of inspirational guidance indeed made impressions deep into one's mind as if carved onto bones.
The Third One: One special characteristic of this Chinese website is to present my Guardian Master's precious teachings in his daily replies to questions raised by disciples or Dharma friends. What impressed me deeply was the event that, there was one article containing his teachings on some secret Tantric matter, and the web-page appeared normally when I was testing it in my computer, but when I uploaded it to the website the file could not be opened. Since I would not give it up I kept trying to upload it again and again, finally the whole website ceased to function, and my computer also went broke. Later I reported to my Guardian Master that the file could not be uploaded and asked him to bless the computer to function smoothly. My Guardian Master indicated that this could mean that the Dharma protectors would not allow us to upload this article, so he instructed me to remove this file and save it separately. Unexpectedly, as soon as I removed this file from the website, all functions restored to normal. I indeed cannot rationally understand such phenomena. Even for computer professionals, unless they had experienced such phenomena themselves, they could not believe in such occurrences. Based on their experiences in website construction such events were simply impossible to have occurred, and had never occurred, and yet such events happened repeatedly during the course of a website construction born of pure Bodhicitta.
Website construction was full of twists and turns,
Thus a practitioner's dedication was put to trial.
Born of pure intention and then endeavored straight,
Many inspirational guidance constantly received.
Epilog
Due to limitations in my abilities the construction of this website still allows space of improvement. During the course of this novice's construction the possibility of smooth progress was especially due to my Merciful Guardian Master's attentive instructions despite his busy schedules, for this I am grateful, and to suggestions made by my elder Vajra Dharma brother Stanley, and to blessings from Buddhas and Bodhisattvas and guidance from Dharma protectors so that the Chinese website may function smoothly. May all who had the opportunity to visit this website also receive blessings from Buddhas and Bodhisattvas and help from Dharma protectors so as to diligently apply efforts on the right path and attain enlightenment soon!
Written in Chinese on July 25, 2005
Residence in Accord with Harmony
Taipei, Taiwan
Translated into English on May 11, 2006
A Study for the Cultivation of Harmony
El Cerrito, California
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